in all my unhappiness

i used to write sad little lonely stuff in a notebook of mine..things i tot were poetic..thots i found expressive..trying to be cool..trying to be 'deep'..these things keep resurfacing whenever i feel sad and alone.. well..dunno what's gotten into me..seems super emotional.. just so frustrated..questioning love... it's weird..i alwiz have this eternal struggle with equality.. if 2 persons are in love.. one makes one angry by not doin sth... sth simple.. who loves who less? if you're A and you didnt do tt sth B asks for..do u love B? if you're B and A didnt do wad you asked for cos of personal reasons..can you get angry with A? if you do, does it make u less underastding? does it mean you love A less? dunno if anyone can get the gibberish not..

i'm just so frustrated..so angry..so grumpy..need to be alone but dun wanna be alone.. wanna think think think but so tired of having to think rationally..is this the trying period? so many whys to ask..so many things to get angry about..just so angry..with myself and with everyone..simply disappointed in us..

stop crying grace cos tears nv did make anything better..tears just evokes sympathy..you're not asking for sympathy..tears are just so useless so powerless..what's there to cry for?

my brain's screaming screaming screaming.. why is there this ache deep in my heart..why is there this odd feeling of despair..why am i so troubled..what is the source? is it u? is it just me? is it even anyone's fault?

guess i ran out of steam..am i just being a drama queen? i have got to be the toughest cookie to live with..someone shld just eat me up