excitement vs paranoia

help! i'm v excited for my party but wad if it's a failure? wad if my guests refuse to play games..wad if the games are not so funny on tt day? wad if it rains? wad if no one can find the place..wad if ppl last minute dont come? is my wish list too crappy? oh man..help!

but i'm excited abt the party idea..havent been to a party in a long time..somemore after party maybe can camp at lin's hse for Mj den nx day can go out again! whee...

but ...i'm having a wardrobe crisis..really dunno wad to wear...wanna wear new clothes but cant find sth i really like..shiiiiiiitttt.... roar...wanna wear boots and all but den wad happens when i take off the boots..will my pants look odd? sial la..so many considerations..wish i'm not htrowing a party..den can go out thousands of times and wear new clothes everytime and i will get to eat more than just one cake.. sigh...right now the paranoia supresses the mini feelings of excitement i have now..neh!!! *faint*

lemme write down who cfm coming k?make my self feel exicted.

• 2Gs

Jo, XL, Richard, Ives, Siu, Rina, Kelvin, Colin, Hx, Paul, ?say wei

• SO1

Ade, Thom, Jie wei, Randy, Andy, Wai Lay, Siong, ?kian wai, ya ang

• Ohana

Dj, Ej

• Guides

Shufen, Lin, Von, ?ser, ?steph

• 4J

Shaunie, Zhanwei

• Poly

Perk, Ping, Mel, Siwei, Wan Xuan, ?mei mei

• Ex-church pals

E.Leong, Gerald but not cfm

• Family

Germaine n family...?my kor, ?my didi

last but not least, there's yuan!

tt's ard 36 pp i think..anyway, if u wanna bring ur other halves, bring lo..just make sure they help me eat the food...!