strange

strange how easy it is to say beautiful things at beutiful times.. but once the beautiful times fade...the words crumble to ashes..you see everything in its clearest sense..you see all things...

strange how easy it is to believe in beautiful things at beautiful times only to feel like a fool when those moments fade..strange how u noe..promises can never be made/hold true..but strange how u still believe..

really wondering about life..wondering about the future again..cynic at the age of 22? doubting the world, doubting every good thing tt might/may happen at this age? is there anyone/anything to blame? or are we all just jaded by experiences..have alwiz wanted my life to be full of experiences.. to be able to live..to be able to feel ALIVE...to be able to have a taste of the world..to be able to experience all there is..but the cynicism kicks in.. without resources (money etc), with restraints (job, family..etc), how can we do tt? is it worth all the trouble? so wad if i've experienced it all? *sigh*

feeling kinda down..oh wellz..