overprotected

this issue has been revolving ard my life for like..all my childhood all my life..i hate it! i dont see their reason..if ur reason was u're worried abt me..den ur reason would have been valid till i turned 18..if ur reason was tt u have nth to do after 11pm..den ur reason is really lame..there's so many things u can do and they dont have to be bad..if ur reason was like i go out too many times..den ur reason is starting to piss me off..i only go out on weekends these days..who are u to say i go out too many times? the most i go out is twice a wk..i hate u... there..u have no more reasons..if u loved me..would u subject me to such torturous nites where i have to part with my frens just to stick to my pathetically secondary schoolish curfew?if u loved me..why dont u trust me? if u loved me..why stop me from having fun?if u loved me...well..i dont love u anymore k?i'm grown up..i've grown up..and i hate these restrictions..i hate all these..all the times u say 'no' just makes me hate u more..i didnt wanna use the word hate cos i dun want it to be that definite..i dun hate u..i just dislike wad u're doing to me. but i feel enough to say i hate u now.of all the tons of frens i have..i happen to be the only one with a curfew..if ur lame shit excuse for me to have a curfew is tt..i dunno how lucky i am as compared to u when u were schooling...c'mon..times change..ur time was boring..my time is fun..don't stop me from having fun..i am only young once..just like u once were. if u say u love me..den i just have simple qns to ask u..if u loved me..den wad is my chinese name? do u noe tt?no u don't..if u loved me..den how old am i this yr?do u noe tt?u dont either..if u loved me..u'd noe sch and which yr i'm in..but do u?even tt is questionable..since u apparently couldnt be bothered abt my life..why let this bother u? I.Cant.Stand.It.

i hate u but i hate myself too..hate myself for being too weak to pick a fight..to yell back..to scream back..the furthest i'd go is to slam doors and bangs things ard..and to have cold wars..i have nv really screamed back at u..well..if tt is good upbringing den good for u..u have 'succeeded' as a parent if tt's wad 'parenting' is all abt in ur head.i'm well trained..just liek a pet..i lowered my head when scolded..i dont talk back..i dont go ahead and do it even though i noe it will piss u off..well trained indeed..happy?

one of these days..when i am able to financially support myself..i'd zoom out the door without a backward glance..if u loved me..u wouldnt do this..the more times this happens..the more i wanna run..u alwiz wonder why i go out so often..why do i fly..just qn urself..just look at the times u chide me and restrict my freedom and u'll prob find a trend..tt would be if u gave a damn abt my life..