in all my randomness

me trying to blog down all my worries and frustrations..haha..sitting here with an itchy nose, sore throat and contemplating abt getting an mc frm work tml.. feel tt my nose is gonna drop off or sth..the way it itches..roars..

anyway as the prospect of flyng off to the land of Oz draws near, i'm soo getting cold feet. like..what will i eat? what will i wear? (for awhile it reminds me of..if He clothed the lilies of the valley, if He fed the birds up in the sky..how much more He'd give to me..how much more His love for me..Love my dear Jesus so much..) me...someone who cant cook anything tt requires oil..ha! someone who can't differentiate cotton and rayon and what shrinks and what not..eeeeeeeeekz! freaking out...

really wondering what will happen when i leave..i betcha i'll be bawling my eyes out at the airport..and den again on the plane..and den again in Australia..SIGH..shall not think so much..

well, as for work wise..2months down..5more to go! whoopee! it's really huh for me to be thinking tt way..cos..i'm gg to study to add value to my work and i cant wait till i finish my contract? haha..weird man..i gotta endure bit more! once i gain sufficient exp and sufficient moolah.i'm so gg to open my own place..really wanna work with kids..want it to be a happy place! hope tt i won't forget why i wanna set it up in the first place and tumble down the path of greediness and money making schemes..haha...dunno la..prolly spouting rubbish..maybe i shld do part time at gymboree or tumble tots first..den can see if i like working with kids..or if my idea to fuse both needy kids and so called normal kids together in the same environment is feasible not..much as kids are innocent and cutesy and all, they're still not tt immune to prejudices and kids can be so honestly mean..plus there's their parents to contend with..bahh..

i aint feeling so good as to head to work..itchy nose itchy throat itchy ears.. nv noe when u're gg to sneeze and cough..i think sometimes when working..it's not abt how well u can tahan it..sometimes it's abt image too..as a healthcare provider..i wouldnt trust u if u came in sneezing and looking worse off than me..for ex, if u're gp having flu..will u there to see him?haha..i'd be quite turn off even tho i noe tt gps are also human and they do fall ill..second thing is tt..with low immunity, working in a hospital is risky..u'll nv noe what germs may be lurking..hee..maybe those are just excuses..maybe i'm actually fit for duty..pout..dunch like ma..