A Bimbotic Crossroad

should i cut my hair or shld i not? should i dye my hair or shld i not? to cut or not to cut? rraahh....when i have good hair days i like long hair..when i have really disgusting hair days, i simply wanna snip them all off!!! bleah....pls advise...

http://sg.auctions.yahoo.com/sg/i::220411710

i saw a similar cap for 12bucks..but i dont like the colour! but it's 12bucks!!! and the cutting wise...i think it's similar..shit..feel so tempted cos it's cheap for a cap..but den like scared i buy le dont like...den waste money... just realised i like the squarish type of caps..like those army jockey caps..maybe i shld just kope those..n just put some iron on patch thingie..hmm...

shall not do any work today...wanna slack..have been too stressed...burnt out le..just fri i was gg mad..msg-ing like ej, dj n dear abt how stress i m till i dont even feel like touching pts...*DONT MAKE ME TOUCH THEM!!!* Heh...

me like happily shopping online now..feel like shopping really bad..but need the moolah..hmm...any body noe how to write a proper resume? i wanna apply for some tumbletots job..hahah...play trainer or sth...maybe tt can be part time..cos they want on wkends or sth..

sooo in the cap mood now..heh... vonziiiiieeeee...if u're reading this...can help me see if hk have or not?? hahah...pleaaaseeee?

feels so bimbo again..bahhh

warning...bimbo post ahead!

i love this cap! sigh...i wanna buy caps like these leh...so if anyone sees sth like tt for like super duper dirt cheap..like really dirt cheap..buy one for me please!!!!! i like the khaki/army green one better...heh..


http://sg.auctions.yahoo.com/sg/i:H002%3A%20Fashion%20Vintage%20Cap%20%28gucci%20coach%20bag%20dress%20zara%29:219664698

i saw tt on yahoo auctions btw...but it costs like $33 la!!! so ex right.. =(

i'm home i'm home

now is my afternoon break..i'm supposed to do some readings n prep for my evening patients...hopefully it'll be a super busy nite... busy good..less time for qns..heh...i miss everyone! i miss my bang bang...dunch noe why..mz be the rain making me feel bit blue..=(

God help me

roar!!! i 'failed' my 2nd wk of attachment... feel so bad..like really sucky...like totally loserish...i just simply cant rmb wad qns to ask..wad things to probe more into when i'm doing my assessments on my pts.. den i start to panic... n i keep thinkning on the spot.. my clinical educator (CE) says i cant do tt cos the pt's will have no confidence in me.. den he says tt my handling skills are still raw n pretty much sucks..but hey, i havent been touching MS stuff in ages la...plus even if i prac, i also dunno if it's correct or not..sigh...it's all in all v upsetting..=( have been upset the whole wk..nx wed is like mid-wk assessment le...den i really cannot take it if i fail again..roar... need help help help! =S sigh...

jia u ba gracie...jia u....

u noe he loves u when....

when he's willing to go downstairs n buy food when u're too lazy to! hahah..yuan just popped downstairs to buy me dinner...hahah...happy...all cos i'm hungry n i wanna watch tv n not go down n buy....=) feeling of bliss washes over me... *contented* i smell my food now....

happy new yr

hmm...wad exactly is the big hooha abt the new yr? except for growing older..there's hardly any change..u go to school, meet more or less the same ppl, do the same things...but wad have u accomplished...i cannot think of anything i've really accomplished last yr.. hmm...unless travelling to taiwan counts...haha..actually i was damn happy on that trip..it's like a first all girl trip for me and somemore it's a must-fly-by-plane trip..heh..shows we're growing up. not to mention a trip to kl-genting tt we planned for by ourselves..like seasoned pros, we got the hotel rooms, the coach ticket..=) tt was quite cool..

maybe i should put up a list of stuff i wanna do by the time i'm dead. like stuff i wanna accomplish...like things i wanna try out..let's start the ball rolling..hopefully i can accomplish somethings by this yr.. =P

1. learn diving..(it's a struggle writing this down cos i'm kinda scared to but u only live once and i heard it's awesome! now i need to find frens to dive with..)
2. learn some dance and hopefully loooooose weight thru dancing..hahaha...i wanted to do lindy hop, hip hop and jazz..but den learning sth new..takes money..and a huge chunk of bravery cos if i dont go with a fren...i will be all alone! n i hate being all alone. too self-conscious to be left alone. eeks.
3. lose weight. the ever-constant goal. i dont need to be stick thin. i just would like to fit my bottom into well, most bottoms! plus if i can rid myself of the tummy..it would be perfect. and i wanna swim to lose weight. but where can i go tt is not crowded?=( wanna do some kick-boxing and stuff. but where can i go tt is easy on the pocket? =( me n the girls (omg i suddenly cant rmb who) said tt we wanna joing amore and do kick boxing or some funky classes. heh...djd, dajie, erjie u want?
4. learn how to work a sewing machine and finish sewing tt pillow for yuan! the cross stitch bit is alright but i dunno how to sew seams...yikes~!
5. find other ways than a stable job to earn money.. haha... like maybe set up an online shop or go join a flea market or sth..saw this advert in the papers the other day. Physical play trainer for tumble tots..wanted to apply for it. but forgot to. den gave myself many reasons/excuses why i didnt n shldnt. firstly, i got no time to. when sch starts i have no time to do child stuff. for ex: school is all day round. children like really young children are so lucky tt sch is only a short few hrs. so i dont think i cant squeeze their short few hrs into my timetable cos my timetable doesnt happen to be flexible! roars..
6. get into uni.....praying to go curtin, which is in perth. and if it happens it will only happen nx yr feb cos their course starts in feb. if i'm brave enuf, i would like to work there for awhile. maybe be super happy earning aussie dollars den come back slightly richer. hahah..if the extra money aint spent on shopping yet. heee...
7. overcome some fears..if this list is gonna be stuff i wanna do before i die, den it shld include sth dangerous right? hahah.. ok, how abt overcome my fear for insects!? tt's like...gonna be super hard... cos...i hate things tt move faster than me! esp those creepy crawlies..if it's a slow creepy crawly like a worm or sth..den it's ok...just dont give me cockroaches and beetles!i wonder how m i gonna prove tt i overcome my fear of cockroaches. haha..like eat them? do i have too? =S
8. do sth tt takes my breath away! (to make sure i'm still breathing) the last time was prolly GMax..i was so scared i really couldnt say tt much..hahah..maybe shld go like hk disneyland and take the rollercoasters or sth.
9. learn how to ride a motorcycle. just for kicks. cos i really think tt riding a bike is kinda eeky soemtimes..esp when it rains~!
10. set up a private practice. was thinking of setting one up for tots. but need to get well connected first. hmm..

tt's enough for now bah..the more i write the more dramatic the want-to-do list becomes. haha..den i'll get myself into trouble if i cant do it... roars..

anyway, the BIG diff btw this yr and last yr will prolly be tt I'M GONNA GRADUATE SOON! and tt i will BE FINDING A JOB SOON! tt is like...help~!!!! the panic alarms sounds, all sorts of warning bells are tinkering in my head, heart is racing, ears are pounding, palms are sweaty~! this time round, if a client/pt asks u a qn, u cannot dont answer on the spot cos ur pts trust u. if u act unprofessionally (i.e. go into a state of panic), u are so dead. no one will cover ur ass. if u dont graduate well enuf, u might not get into uni! if u dont hurry n get a job, all the jobs will be snapped up! it's gonna be so chaotic. and this time round, there r no sch hols~! so if u dont like 5days a wk, 9-5pm jobs..goodluck arh..oh well, now tt i let off lotsa steam, i'm gonna thank God for this blessed new yr. the diff btw this yr n last yr is tt this yr will be more blessed than last yr. good things will come in loads and loads. blessings will just rain down and i will just be like..how did this ever happen. all those and much more than i can quantify...will happen..without me working too hard..cos Jesus loves me! wahahhaha!!! =)

In Genting

the 3 guys i went to m'sia with..heh...tt's josh in the black shirt...wait..they're all in black shirts! Guys... *rolls eyes* so josh is the dude looking at me taking the photo..yuan is the one with the big ass funny face..by rule of elimination, u shld noe who is alex..guy in middle...with the cap...and the teeny eyes..hahah


since i made yuan give such a big ass funny face..it's only right tt i give one too..right back at u!

him n me posing in the ktv room...it's alwiz so worth in to sing in m'sia..haha...if u r thick skin enuf, u can even sing waaaaaay past the stipulated time..hahaha...gian beng...


this was a test of physical resistance..pitting humans against nature! hhaha...it was freezing cold outside and it's GENTING...and they bravely stood there without jackets...actually i think alex had a jacket but tt's not the pt..it was v cold! and plus..i love living among clouds... *give an airy fairy smile..looks bimbotic and stoned out...* heh...

the 3 dudes again....alex without his cap...i.e. with FLAT hair...hahahaha...cannot stand it

me n a v reluctaant zhu in the hotel

shall photoblog abt my kl trip soon.... in case i disappeared with no one knowing...i went on a KL-Genting triplike 2wks ago or so..heh..went with yuan and his 2 other army frens. anyway, i just switched to the new blogger den dunno how to use my hello account to upload photos le..so this photoblogging will be painfully slow... =( i dont even noe where to put my shoutbox..ugh

posing for a photo in the coach..

we took causeway link by the way... quite big n comfy... nice..=) but it was like a 12am bus ride...which prolly sped all the way till we reached kl at 3.30 am...JB to KL...3hrs or so.. *shake head* is that fast or wad?