Have u ever heard? Have u seen?

Ye zi by ah sang..erjie sent the song to me a loooong time ago i think..tt day i went to sing ktv with dj and i happened to pick this song...and....WHY DIDNT ANYONE WARN ME THE MTV IS SO SAD! roars...me n dj were like...ahhhhhh! the impact of the song's not there till u watch the mtv man...sad to the max..

oh oh oh..on a lighter, cheerier note...have u watched enchanted?! if u love disney cartoons esp the princess ones...u have absolutely gotta watch it! it's sobimbotically fluffy and nice and sweet..hahhah...i've been dreaming of a true love's kiss! lalalalla!!!

２２nd bday at Honjin

Honjin, honjin, what a sedap eatery! hahaha...located at Chow Hse, somewhere opposite CPF building.. it's superly duperly nice! hahaha..not everything though but the tepanyaki things were good..think salmon, think grilled eel, grilled butter juicy, succulent prawns!UOB was having promotions for bday stuff so it was a 3pay-1 dines free scheme! so happily we went...xl, jo, yuan n me..

oh-so-bored

realised i've totally neglected my bloggy.. hehe..anyway..5 more wks to the end of my contract.. i can hardly wait..really wonder like how come i'm so eager to end work? it's only like the beginning of my career so to speak la..

anyway..today's the 1st dec...sadz..my absolutely fav bday mth is over.. but dec means hols and prezzies galore..hahah.spread the love!

well..i had a peaceful bday this yr..spent it at work..yikes...but the following day i spent it with dajie...whose cousin is actually my colleague!!!! *thunder lightning in the backgrd* hahah...almost couldnt spend tt half day with dj but den almost couldnt go due to some unforseen hiccups at work...thank God for nice seniors..i think the fact tt i told them i'm meeting my long lost fren helped..heee...well me n dj went to sing k tog..hhahaha..2 of us for 3 hrs...shiok man...seriously cant rmb wad we ate for dinner le but i superly duperly loved the singing session.. so one more person noes tt i really cant sing w/o singing along with the actual singer..hahah..spoiler but my voice simply squeaks by itself..and den..dj bot me an organizer for bday! yay! superly love it..the thot of having to keep it till 1st jan to write in it was like killing me till i flipped the pages and..tada! saw tt the dairy acftually starts from october 2007 till dec 2008! wahahhhaha..so have been writing in it le!

and by some freak chance i met gerald on the train...this guy msged me a bday greeting just the day b4 and den i met him on the train on my way to swim... *smacks head* havent seen him in like...almost exactly one yr!

rraahhh...i'm so random tt i forgot what i've wrote and wad i havent... anyway on my bday itself..i had swimming lessons ma..usu after swimming i wont be having dinner till real late..but at least this time round, yuan bought me to eat crab bee hoon at amk! muahahaha...so happily loved tt day...=)

Lippy

gaaack..wanted to buy this from online..lemonade flavour love-a-lot bear lip balm..=( but too late! sold out..rraaahhh in any case, if u see it anywhere...lemme noe pls!

Muahahahahah

	Minimal: You would most likely not get caught, but if you did, it would be due to technological developments arising after the case had gone cold.
from QuizGalaxy.com

Define Me

Grace Koh -- [noun]: A person who is constantly high 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Have You Seen This Doraemon?

I simply love this doraemon!! it belongs to one of my seniors at work..sighh...wish i could kope it..wahahahahha...

packing list for perth

so excited about thinkin of gg to perth..have a million and one things to do beforehand.. i think this yr's birthday wish list will consist of WEBCAM, international calling cards AND aussie dollars..haha..

hmm..the bimbo in me is asking..if i were to go australia...what clothes would i bring? what shoes to bring? what bags to bring? accessories?? tt'd be a WHOLE lotta things..drats..plus i gotta bring my refrence bks and stationary and i dunno-what-else..

sighhhhh..i cant even get started to pack my own room..bah!

My Birthdate

Your Birthdate: November 19

You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested. You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them. Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others. You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

So not true leh..i'm not suspiscious of others..i'm not a loner..i didnt have such a tough life and certainly didnt grow up v fast..*whines and pouts*

in all my unhappiness

i used to write sad little lonely stuff in a notebook of mine..things i tot were poetic..thots i found expressive..trying to be cool..trying to be 'deep'..these things keep resurfacing whenever i feel sad and alone.. well..dunno what's gotten into me..seems super emotional.. just so frustrated..questioning love... it's weird..i alwiz have this eternal struggle with equality.. if 2 persons are in love.. one makes one angry by not doin sth... sth simple.. who loves who less? if you're A and you didnt do tt sth B asks for..do u love B? if you're B and A didnt do wad you asked for cos of personal reasons..can you get angry with A? if you do, does it make u less underastding? does it mean you love A less? dunno if anyone can get the gibberish not..

i'm just so frustrated..so angry..so grumpy..need to be alone but dun wanna be alone.. wanna think think think but so tired of having to think rationally..is this the trying period? so many whys to ask..so many things to get angry about..just so angry..with myself and with everyone..simply disappointed in us..

stop crying grace cos tears nv did make anything better..tears just evokes sympathy..you're not asking for sympathy..tears are just so useless so powerless..what's there to cry for?

my brain's screaming screaming screaming.. why is there this ache deep in my heart..why is there this odd feeling of despair..why am i so troubled..what is the source? is it u? is it just me? is it even anyone's fault?

guess i ran out of steam..am i just being a drama queen? i have got to be the toughest cookie to live with..someone shld just eat me up

in all my randomness

me trying to blog down all my worries and frustrations..haha..sitting here with an itchy nose, sore throat and contemplating abt getting an mc frm work tml.. feel tt my nose is gonna drop off or sth..the way it itches..roars..

anyway as the prospect of flyng off to the land of Oz draws near, i'm soo getting cold feet. like..what will i eat? what will i wear? (for awhile it reminds me of..if He clothed the lilies of the valley, if He fed the birds up in the sky..how much more He'd give to me..how much more His love for me..Love my dear Jesus so much..) me...someone who cant cook anything tt requires oil..ha! someone who can't differentiate cotton and rayon and what shrinks and what not..eeeeeeeeekz! freaking out...

really wondering what will happen when i leave..i betcha i'll be bawling my eyes out at the airport..and den again on the plane..and den again in Australia..SIGH..shall not think so much..

well, as for work wise..2months down..5more to go! whoopee! it's really huh for me to be thinking tt way..cos..i'm gg to study to add value to my work and i cant wait till i finish my contract? haha..weird man..i gotta endure bit more! once i gain sufficient exp and sufficient moolah.i'm so gg to open my own place..really wanna work with kids..want it to be a happy place! hope tt i won't forget why i wanna set it up in the first place and tumble down the path of greediness and money making schemes..haha...dunno la..prolly spouting rubbish..maybe i shld do part time at gymboree or tumble tots first..den can see if i like working with kids..or if my idea to fuse both needy kids and so called normal kids together in the same environment is feasible not..much as kids are innocent and cutesy and all, they're still not tt immune to prejudices and kids can be so honestly mean..plus there's their parents to contend with..bahh..

i aint feeling so good as to head to work..itchy nose itchy throat itchy ears.. nv noe when u're gg to sneeze and cough..i think sometimes when working..it's not abt how well u can tahan it..sometimes it's abt image too..as a healthcare provider..i wouldnt trust u if u came in sneezing and looking worse off than me..for ex, if u're gp having flu..will u there to see him?haha..i'd be quite turn off even tho i noe tt gps are also human and they do fall ill..second thing is tt..with low immunity, working in a hospital is risky..u'll nv noe what germs may be lurking..hee..maybe those are just excuses..maybe i'm actually fit for duty..pout..dunch like ma..

got it got it got it

ring ring ring....hey grace, good news for u...u got the offer from Curtin...

whoohooo....best news tt my agent got for me..heh..anyway so it means i'll be off to perth this coming feb... school supposedly starts on feb 18...i'm supposed to be there 1wk earlier for orientation..the more i think abt the moolah and the accomodation and the arrangements, the more i feel like gg into stoning mode..

anyway it's hectic hectic hectic stuff here in singapore.. mad rush for places in aus schools..crazy rush again to get all the things ready for school...for curtin i need a life savers bronze medal at least, plus a seniors first aid course with CPR..sigh...

but i'm excited..to be staying in either apartments or hostels..to be studying in super different environments... all the seniors at work are like..go n don't come back! stay there n work! hahah...and then they're all green with envy...haha..quite funny..

oh wells..i'm wishing everyone all the best in their mad rush to secure their future..jia u everyone..let's hop into the adult world with hopes high and optimism overflowing! haha..we're after all young enough to make mistakes and get away with it..haha

Pictures from the past...not so past though..

Really gross looking yet really nice sotong sausage! the normal sausage sausage was even better... it's still attached to a rib..roasted to perfection..juicy..succulent..sweet...MEAT!



if u like mushrooms u will definitely like this...creamy buttery taste of mushrooms...grilled to all juiciness..



the LiYiBingDian...where all ur taiyang bing (Sun Biscuits) and huangli su (Pineapple thingie) fantasies come true!



high high into the sky!



yummi-liscious peanut shaved ice! tastes like peanut butter ice cream lo..super creamy..almost like the real thing!



Mua favourito! Mr Doughnut! super bagus...simply sedap! hahaha...some butter crunch thingie was super sinfully yummy!

updates on life

haha...has been super busy plus lazy these days.. super tired after work.. me working in the out-pt gym actually so not so energy draining like my friends who have to carry old ah mas and ah peks...so work is like mon-fri..830 to 530..outpt doesnt drag so much unlike inpt but still v tiring to see pts non-stop..haha..we're all living for the wkends..

anyway, cgh's been pretty fun..the ppl are really quite nice and friendly..but den they try to make us bond by throwing us to play games like floorball and captain's ball..hahah.. so my team actually did win the floorball game...don't ever look down on the customer service staff...they're really aggressive and wad not..kinda scary..haha..cannot imagine how will our captain's ball match against them be..yikes..

omg..jia u jin shun is making me cry..so sad..hahah...

anyway in all the randomness, i feel so relieved to have gotten my first pay! hahah..but i'm slightly puzzled as to like how do i return money to my papa's cpf..do i have to externally write a cheque or sth or is it auto deducting frm my pay? oh wellz..

i'm so counting down till the days i end my contract..and then i'm wondering wad next..hopefully i'll be gg off to curtin.. once u start work u can really understd why some ppl don't mind staying home...hahha..me really wanna be a chao bimbo suddenly..no responsibilities...no protocols!! hahaha...work was really ugh in the 1st wk especially..like the first few pts..u feel so off seeing them...den so slow..cannot reach quota..cannot get right diagnosis..i'm still in the student mindset..wanna ask my seniors like how and wad to do for this n that.. slowly weaning off it..den u feel v shiok to have the "power" to decide..but WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY! sigh..mz make sure u're safe n treat pts well.. sigh..



one of my fav pics frm taiwan taiwan '07



super like it tt we're posing so nicely for the camera



he's trying to kill me! pooooiiissssooon!

back frm taiwan, gg to redang

i'm back! hahah...went mad in taiwan..but it was pretty good..even went to some theme park! went to the hot springs too! and the yang ming shan...still like taiwan pretty much cos no matter where u eat at...the food is good! n this time with jo's frens bringing us to some places (eg. tai zhong)...it was quite cool..well..pics will have to come when i'm back frm redang i suppose..kinda lazy now..anywayz..i'll prolly be back on fri morn..not sure...might come back earlier..suppose it depends on the girls..heh..

by the way....i got a job...yay yay yippeee..at cgh though...oh wellz...at least it's near..n before all of u give eeked out faces...cgh physio aint tt bad la..in fact the sports side is pretty gd..no idea where i'll be posted to though..just yearning to gain some clinical experience...glad tt they're pretty flexible in letting me choose how many mths a contract i want.ahah...had some trouble calculating 6, 7 and 8mths..hahah...so basically i'll end work on 4th jan 2008...if i'm gg overseas for sch den i'm gg..if not..i might see if they wanna renew my contract or i hafta piao elsewhere...well, it's all planned by God so i'm fine with wherever cos i noe i'll be blessed eh...=)

i'm pretty hyped over work..cos i've quite a few frens there as well..mainly frm my class somemore..yay! n i've got ping!!! hahah...happy me...plus cgh is quite near so i suppose travelling time is way lesser than anywhere else..heh..but once i noe which department i'll be posted to..i suppose it's time to hit the books again..hope it's super different frm clinicals..but den i have v little acute hospital clinical experience..oh well..all in God's hands...no worries! =)

ooohwaaahooohwaaaah

was transferring photos frm the camera to the com...to make space for tons more pics...wahahha..

vonzie i'm gg taipei on 4th - 9th may!!! maybe can see u there!!! will be staying at a hostel again..taiwanmex..heard it's near the kmall, near the jappy shopping centre...which reminds me of the ji pa and the sushi...how much was it ah? i cant rmb wor..n i think this time round i might be gg a few other places...cos jo has got frens in taipei who might be bringing us round...wheee!

i'm still at it for fyp...rraaahhhzz....

1 more week...1 week later...i will be... FREE! i would nv have to come back to sch again..unless to get my cert i think..yes yes yes yes yes!

1 week, 1 more day...i will be on the plane...all my bags are packed and i'm ready to go..i'm leaving on a jet plane..don't noe when i'll be back again..leaving on a jet plane...

I ABSOLUTELY CAN'T WAIT!

The Chronicles of FYP

It's been close to a year since we've embarked on this long arduous journey. This unceasing mental torture, this "mind over body" mantra, this experience..much as i would like to say it was all a waste.. it wasn't..much as i would like to rage against the top management..well, actually i would like to rage against them even though this experience has been enriching..think there's still some teenage angst left in me..ha! anyway i tot it was quite a worthwhile experience.. full of arguements and battles with Mr B..filled with large periods of time where night and day has merged..(oh man.this certain word eludes me..can't get it out..having vocab constipation! crap)every step of the way, we wondered, 'why us?' why did B arrow us for publishing?why must he step on our tail? now standing at the near end of the chronicles of fyp (i really can write more but i shan't bore u with irrelevant details), i shall let out a LARGE whoop of joy,"WHOOOOOP!" hahah..is there even such a word to exclaim the immense joy and excitement knowing that we beat FYP..we rock! haha (on the side note: fyp not exactly completed yet..still got final reporting and the viva to do..but one can alwiz count their chickens before they hatch right...it will hatch right?! it will! tell me it will..say it will..say it! say it!)

strange

strange how easy it is to say beautiful things at beutiful times.. but once the beautiful times fade...the words crumble to ashes..you see everything in its clearest sense..you see all things...

strange how easy it is to believe in beautiful things at beautiful times only to feel like a fool when those moments fade..strange how u noe..promises can never be made/hold true..but strange how u still believe..

really wondering about life..wondering about the future again..cynic at the age of 22? doubting the world, doubting every good thing tt might/may happen at this age? is there anyone/anything to blame? or are we all just jaded by experiences..have alwiz wanted my life to be full of experiences.. to be able to live..to be able to feel ALIVE...to be able to have a taste of the world..to be able to experience all there is..but the cynicism kicks in.. without resources (money etc), with restraints (job, family..etc), how can we do tt? is it worth all the trouble? so wad if i've experienced it all? *sigh*

feeling kinda down..oh wellz..

oh, how he sucks

*deep breathe gracie gal*

wad the chao....nnnggghhh...
we change,
we changed,
we can change the world!
but the change is nv enuf for you...
oh how u suck...

*frens are food, not fish* hahaha...i came up with tt when i met dj just now in sch..heeeee...so nice to cya again dj..hahha..miss ya girl..

on a rampage

eyes so small i can hardly open..head so big but info cant get in.. feel so cranky n crabby n hostile..highly strung..m gonna scream if u touch me..need office wear for fyp presentation this sat..need office wear for interview... m really pissed... need to register for anger mgmt classes liao..hear me roar!