Please trust me when i say "i love u"

roar roar roar roar roarrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!

sigh...i realised tt i can nv get "away from it all" much as i would like to. the same prob will just keep haunting me till i silence it once and for all. i would like to be a good girl and promise u everything and make u happy and stay happy the way i am but i can nv fully be 'free' if i dun face it. i'm caught in the middle now. i cant forget and chuck the past aside when it comes to find me but shldnt we heck the past when the future's much better and much more promising and much more deserving? i dunno wad i'm blabbering abt le. i just want everything to be as it were. i wanna be truly happy. i dun wanna have any skeletons in my closet. the escapist in me alwiz chooses to run/hide/pretend nth's wrong when trouble arises. *screams to self: coward!* time to face the monsters i hide from but it's exam timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

ugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...bad things alwiz happen when i'm mugging last minute...why-oh-why...........!

i need to last for one more week before i can breakdown and wad not. i cant take it. dun bug me dun bug me dun bug me dun bug me dun bug me dun bug me dun bug me dun bug meeeeeeee!

p/s erjie....happy birthday to u!

but bao bei pls trust me when i say 'i love u'...i wun be shaken by anything he says if tt's wad u're worried abt. pls dun be disappointed with me. sometimes disappointment deals a bigger blow than anger. i'm so sad yet i cant turn to u cos u're upset with me. "what if the person tt can stop ur tears from falling is the one tt made u cry?" and den wad if the reason u're crying is not his fault...roarr...... *sigh*