sat's are good days to blog

hmm...i realised tt i'd be pondering and wondering most of my saturday nights..haha..i'm bored..just waiting for ppl to finish their exams so they can entertain me..haha...

anyway i'm perturbed by sth. i just wonder whether i'm being objective or biased in tt matter..sometimes things just come to a point whereby i just give up on tt frenship.but ther strange thing is one of the frenships i've given up on...is suddenly just 'revived'. but due to all the past hurts, i'm just unsure of how to continue the frenship? to trust totally like i once had or to be cautious and careful with all my words?it's a strange feeling to be tt way..it's a strange feeling really..like i'm really unsure as much as i wanna be frens again.. rraahhh...

once again... i start to wonder abt my frenships..tt makes me feel blue most of the time..wish life was simple like before..like in sec sch or in jc..where frens were my everything..i had so much fun..was so carefree den..i miss ade..i miss dajie,erjie,dage..i miss those times where we first met each other..hahaha...

i rmb i laughed at dage..tot he was a giant..but was v funny when i couldnt catch his name and also tot it was kinda funny when such a big guy played the trumpet..hahah..i rmb us gg crazy over dage's huge jacket..hahah...i rmb drawing 'big brother is watching' on most of the tables in sch..sometimes i'd just sit on one of my old tables and find my old drawing and i'd be v happy..i rmb gg to sch one day with tons of colourful star clips on my head.. mi zai tot i was crazy..hahah..and well, i couldnt find all of them when i removed it..so some of my hair came out with the removal of the clips..haha...i rmb the sea carnival..when jie wei, wai lay, kain wai and me formed the ultimate mini dragon boat team.. hahaha...all the sea sports guys..and me..well, i was incharge of making a streamed-line shape at the front of the kayak..hahahah..was hilarious.. i rmb taking part in the "amazing race" thingie with my kor, his 2 frens and jie wei..haha...rmb i wanted to gave up kayaking but jie wei scolded/screamed/yelled at me till we finished the course...i rmb sometimes when i was upset and having a free period..i'd msg dajie and co..and well..they'll sometimes all reply at the same time..and just make me feel so loved..hahah..i noe i wasnt spending tons of time with dage they all cos we ended up in diff classes but we were close..i also rmb how ade burnt the hair on her arm when we attended some microbio course...that's where i learnt all abt germs and viruses...haha..i rmb my bio was terrible and everyone helped..was really fun to do bio with all of u guys..

and flashback to sec sch.. girl guideys.. we alwiz kena bishi by the other uniformed groups cos they tot we were bimbotic and lousy..but we alwiz stood up for ourselves and actually tried v hard to prove ourselves..guiding was tons of fun..i loved camping though i could nv really slp on the cold, wet, hard floor of the tent..we loved footdrills..our batch was like mad abt it la..hahah..we happily did our own drills..hahah..we sang stupid songs, danced stupid dances..thinkwe cheorographed almost the whole of N'SYNC's album...the one with bye, bye, bye and all..hahaha...all the campfires we went to...i rmb we were so excited abt some and forced to go to others..haha..den there was also the funny stuff where we transformed into tai tais..ahahha...or rather "lan du gui"...so funny when our guides were doing their activities, we would be hanging out in our room playing cards...or mahjong..(the card version of cos...the real tiles were too noisy and too heavy) ahahha...so fun..rmb scolding our guides telling them tt they had no sense of urgency(SOU).. i miss sec sch life cos it was fun/funny/happy...i rmb i used to jump into puddles with vonzie and linziebinzie just cos it was fun and i loved the rain and i loved puddles...and i also rmb the dirty old man tt approached me while i was on my way home..i wasnt exactly scared..just so angry i sould have kicked him off his bike...sicko..

so many good days..so many memories..so many photos...shall find sometime to arrange my photo album...haha..wish i could just call everyone out and catch up...just sit and chill and not hurry anywhere...yeah, tt'd be nice...